June 22, 1999: Let's see now, yesterday night Jon and I hung out at his house and watched Road Rules and then Val came over. I'm beginning to feel so comfortable around Jon, kinda like he's my best friend. Its really cool because that's what I have been hoping would happen~we'd become best friends. So anyways, Val and I left and went to Kroger and then the gas station to get calling cards. Then we went to my house and decided to go rent a few videos. So we went to Blockbuster Video and rented Romeo and Juliet, and Top Gun. Pablo was there and he asked Val "Are Karen and Tim still broken up?" and Val says "yeah" and I asked Pablo, "Why you want to take me somewhere or something?" and he just grinned so I said "Well, give me a call!" I mean, really Pablo is cool and all but I could only go on dates with him. That's it. So anyways, we go home and watch Romeo and Juliet which sadly reminds me of Chris and that I had to wait until 11 the next morning to call him. So, we finish the movie and go to sleep. The next thing I know I see my cat next to me, then I look up and see this blurry thing that kinda looks like Jon but I can't be sure because I dont have my glasses on. So anyways, I freaked out because it was Jon and he went and bought me and Val doughnuts!! It was so sweet! I feel bad because I dont know how I will ever repay him. The only way I can think of is to be the best friend I can be. But anyways, so 11 comes around and I call Chris. We talked for an hour and a half. It was so great! He told me he was coming down here in like October. On October 9th was the wedding so I have a feeling we will spend October 10th together. I dont care as long as I can see him again. So anyways, we finally decided I would call him tomorrow at 11 am again. I have to set my alarm so I can be awake by then. So anyways, um....oh yeah, by this time Danny Benson was over so we decided to go to Jack-In-the-Box. I had to plead Jon to let me drive. So yeah, we went to Jack in the Box and we ate and all that greatness. Then Jon and I went to go see Col. We talked and stuff and it was cool. I think Col will have my video done by Thursday, I think I am going to ask Mrs. Pyle if I can copy it at her house. I can't wait to see it!!!! So, yeah, then we came home and here I am. So, I better go now.
June 23, 1999: Let's see. Val, Jon, and I spent a majority of our time last night planning a road trip. We will go from San Antonio to Austin to Arlington to Houston. It should be alot of fun. So anyways, I got up this morning and I read an email from Charlotte. It finally looks like she listened to what I have to say because it looks like she might want to spend time with me :) Horray! So, yeah, she was worried about camp. I kinda was too at first, I mean how were we going to handle hanging out together for a week when we haven't even hung out just the two of us in like forever!!! But I said to myself. Karen, don't be bitter about what's been happening. Just take it in strife and accept it. Love Char the way you always have and everything is going to work out. So I am ready for camp. The only thing I'm worried about is what if I find a guy I want to chill with? I don't want to neglect her and its not like I can find someone for her b/c she has Jer. I don't know, I guess I will deal with it if it comes. I've missed Char so much. I hope to God that we can repair our friendship that has been torn apart by these two guys and have what we used to have!
4:59pm. Today so far has been interesting. I woke up at 10 and at 11 I called Chris. We talked and I found out that he has been wearing my ring :). So anyways he finally told me what he thinks about my looks. He said I was gorgeous. Wow, that made me smile. So anyways Val called her guy and they talked and she decided she doesnt like him. So I got her phone card :), Anyways, so I called Char and she told me Tim and Amanda Huff are going out. Ouch that hurts me alot. Even though I have Chris, it still hurts me a little. I dont know how to handle it. I'll figure something out.
June 25, 1999: Oh can it only be Friday? Why do the days seem so long? Is it because I am being tortured with what we like to call a long-distance relationship?? Everything reminds me of Chris. Every song on the radio has something to do with Chris. Is it coincidence that the first time I met Chris, it was raining and I was all wet and now it is raining again?? It has rained everyday since I got home, everyday I am reminded of the fact that fate placed us next to each other in the lunch line so we could sit together and meet. The song I'm listening to said Hold Me, thats what he did, each night from Wednesday on and before he left. He just held me which in my mind is the ultimate form of affection. A hug can be filled with more emotion than sex. Dear Lord, please I beg of you, make time speed up so that once again I might hear his voice or see his face.Let Labor Day come faster than my next breath dear God. Why do I constantly get flashbacks of that Wednesday in the pool when he held me like a baby? Why do I get flashbacks of his little "stripper" routine? Why do I get flashbacks of our first kiss? Of our second kiss? Why can I feel his lips on my forehead? Why am I tortured by the pain of a few mere hours of distance between us????? Why do my ears long to hear his voice and my body long to feel his touch? I miss Chris so much.
July 2, 1999~ I just got home from Mo-Ranch.... I had a decent time. I dont feel like I got as much out of it this year as I have in years past.... I don't know why. I was sitting there during vespers and I was thinking about Chris. I feel such a strong connection between us. I got to talk to him on Tuesday. We talked and this guy I know Jay, came into the room and was complaining about how Iwas taking too long so he told me...."Just tell him you love him and say goodbye!" I told Chris what he had just said and well, it ended up to when I said goodbye, I said "Talk to you later, I dont want to disappoint Jay so...I love you." and he said "I love you too." and I was like "bye". HE TOLD ME HE LOVES ME!!!! And I think he really means it :) I am so upset though...not about Chris. 2 things are really bothering me. WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH MY FRIENDS AND COLLEEN?????? All my mom kept saying was how Colleen was talking to Jon and Val and Mrs. Pyle all week. And Scott taking her places??? I dont think so this pisses me off. Ok, and I was hangin with Jon and Val tonight and I felt like a total outcast. They were like all hunky dorey and I was totally just like out of the picture. I dont know....maybe its just the feeling of returning home. Whatever. Nite.
June 3, 1999: Uh. That's all I have to say about today. I woke up today at about 11:30 which is quite a contrast from 7:30 in the morning like it has been for the past week. So anyways, I take a shower and I got to work on my chores. I finished and I worked for like two and a half hours on the road trip. Then Val came over and we chilled for a while and then I went and bought a phone card so that when Tuesday finally gets here I can call Chris. So then we went to Jon's and decided to go to Marble Slab and get some ice cream. That was so cool. So we went to my house where we ate dinner which was Taco Bell and then we worked on our road trip for a few hours. I am starting to feel like I am the only one who is taking this seriously. It sucks. But anyways, Colleen was on the phone with her little friend Perry for over an hour. I tried getting her off but it was like pulling teeth. It made me so mad. I wanted to hit her sooo much but I was remembering what David said at camp so...I didn't hit her or anything. God! I hate how my little sister is stealing my friends out from behind my back. Anyways, I have to baby-sit tomorrow for the Dravis' so that I can earn some money for the trip. Bye!
July 8, 1999: We left SugarLand yesterday at 5pm. We drove to Boerne, Texas and found a hotel. There was only one bed in the room so I slept on the floor. We woke up this morning at 8:30 and dad and I kinda joked around while we were getting ready which was fun for us. Then we loaded up the van and picked up Colleen in Ingram. She looked terrible! She was all greasy and she had zits everwhere!!!! It was gross. That kinda made me happy because I look better than the last time I saw the Blonsky's and she doesnt. Anyways we drove more and then we stopped in Dumas, Texas which is (looking at a map)_ about 1 hour outside of Amarillo. We ordered pizza and went to bed.
July 9, 1999: Colleen started on the rag today. It really sucks because I did too. At least it wasn't my first time though. But really, I forgot my strapless bra so my dad and I had to go shopping for pads and a bra. That was interesting to say the least. Right now, we are headed for Springfield, Colorado. THERE ARE SO MANY COWS AROUND HERE!!!!
July 11, 1999: Jeff got married yesterday... the wedding was so beautiful! I felt really special because while Jeff was waiting for Angela, he was looking at me and I kept giving him a reassuring smile. Angela looked so pretty! I was talking with all of the Blonsky's and they started helping me realize how much I really do miss the presence of God in my life. Anyways- we went to the hotel after the reception and got ready. Then we walked (Colleen,Sarah, Katie and I) towards Angela's. These guys kept driving by and harassing us. We got to Angela's and Sarah went in and got the guys and in a flash they were outside running after the guys! Then Angela's dad called the cops and they found the guys and made them write apology letters. So yeah, we all hung out and went to the hotel and slept. We woke up this morning and got ready for breakfast. Kelly wasn't feeling well so she spent most of the time in the bathroom. So, anyways, we ate and I challenged Jason to an eating contest. I thought he won but Colleen told me later that he took a pancake and wrapped it in a napkin and hid it so I really did beat him. So we paid and left and said goodbye because everyone was leaving.. So now we're heading for Hot Sulfur Springs. 4:10pm: We went to Estes Park. We went up into the mountains and fed these cute chipmunks. Then we played in the snow which messed up my mind because its July. Then we stopped for lunch at Lake Irene. There was this cute guy sitting a few tables over.....oh well. We went to the motel and I fell asleep.
July 12, 1999: We woke up this morning and got dressed. We went horseback riding which was alot of fun :) Then we went to Winter Park. We rode the Zephyr ski chairlift. It was huge! At the top we went shopping which was fun. Then we went back to the motel and slept.
July 13, 1999: We went to a lake today. Dad and I went canoeing for 45 minutes which was fun. Then I came back and met this really interesting guy. We talked and went swimming. Then we drove to Steamboat Springs where we went to this gorgeous waterfall. It was wonderful. I was snapping pictures left and right.
July 14, 1999: We woke up this morning and Mr. Roe cooked us pancakes. Then we went on this trainride where I met this German teenage guy. He sat across from me and was obvious in his interest. So anyways, I'm thinking about doing a semester of college in Spain. And now we're headed for Colorado Springs.
July 15, 1999: Happy Birthday Mrs. Pyle and Danny! We went to the Air Force Academy today. We watched the lunch formation and went to the gift shop. Then we went on a tour. Then everyone but me went to the Olympic Village and the Garden of the Gods which is upsetting but I didn't feel well. Then we went to sleep.
July 16, 1999: We got on the road today at 9am. We ran into some North Texas thunderstorms which scared the hell out of me. We're staying in Vernon tonight.
July 17, 1999: We drove 578 miles yesterday, wow. I miss Houston! I have missed Val and Jon incredibly!!! SUGARLAND HERE I COME!!!!